That inner resistance, the belief that we don’t deserve to feel well, have nice experiences, have nice things, nice people, joyful inner worlds that come from our choices and efforts is just a deeply ingrained idea. It’s expensive and dangerous, and not true. You’re changing that every time you show up and take in contradictory information. It’s super subtle (like all belief making). One day you’ll look back and say WOW, I’ve changed so much and come so far. <3 <3 <3